My mind has gone through stumblings in different statements and stages.
Just realized I forgot about this important fact; I am not in charge.
As the title of this piece, I surrender all and leave everything up to God.
He has been in charge and He has been taking good care of me all the time.
There were times I didn't understand or I wasn't patient enough, but also there were times of realizing when it all came together at the end.
Once again, I am leaving everything up to God to lead and direct for the rest.