December...
My mind is getting busier trying to figure out what haven't I done that was supposed to be done. And at the same time, I feel like standing on the edge.
Well, it is kind of true. I am at the end of the year, trying to do things better before this year wraps up at the end.
Lately, I've been trying to tell myself that "it's OK"...
I grew up surrounded by high competition and in an environment that only rewarded the first winners only.
I was told to look at my mistakes to accomplish the mission "to be perfect".
Therefore, I miss a lot of things because I am too busy concerning the little things that didn't go well.
I don't want to live like that anymore.
Trying to tap my own shoulder saying "it's OK", and recognize and reward for the things I did well.
It is a hard change, and I have to force myself to remind myself many times every day.
But, I started to recognize myself more and better as I am.
It's OK...
And you know what?
It's really OK.